lost broken confused but i won't give up on you

never before have i seen anything like this. never before have i ever felt so alive. never before have i had the feeling that the world was going to crumble under my feet.

never before have i felt like lying this much to my friends and family. i am not ok. i am not alright. i am not fine but it doesn't much matter now does it??? no i don't believe so. here i am trying to figure shit out like why can't i be able to be friends with a guy if he has a girlfriend. why is it my "friend" thinks she needs to try and get my guys. i hate that i am so lost and confused right now. my spirits are broken cuz i let myself be lied to again. this is why i have decided it is better to lie to myself then to let other people lie to me.

how could i let the same person get me to believe the same lie twice??? i am stupid i am dumb. i am love struck in the worst way possible.


lost broken confused but i won't give up on you....even though i should.

maybe soon i will meet someone who will help me to get away from you.